I dressed cute!?
At church everyone noticed that I was dressed differently from usual.
I was wearing a shirt that had a cute black bow on the neckline, black skinny jeans, and heels. Also I did my hair so my bangs weren’t creepy and looked like a ghost but it came off as cute.
Yay!
Gotta keep it up?
Shopping tomorrow with the sister! Gotta get some more makeup stuff.
MUST LEARN
I have an eyeliner pencil, mascara, and an eyelash curler.
Now I just have to master the whole putting on makeup thing.
Hard stuff……….. :(
MAKE - UP
I need to go out and get some eyeliner and an eyelash curler.
Sigh.
I wanna be pretty too.
I’m sick as hell. I don’t think I’ve ever been this sick before.
Doesn’t help that I’m on my period as well. Killer cramps.
Oh hell no.
Just because I’m nice doesn’t mean you get to hit on me.
You openly saying that you want to cuddle with me while watching movies or whatever together. That’s a big no no. Honestly when you said that I kind of cringed.
NO.
NO.
NO.
NO.
I want to learn how to wear makeup.
I want to lose weight.
I want long hair again.
I want you to be speechless when you see me.
I want you to brag about me.
If only I looked like a Korean celebrity.
I love my LoL friends ♥
They always make me smile and help brighten my day because they don’t know about my life cause we’re internet friends.
So yesterday one of my friend’s roommate steals his mic and tells me that I have a really pretty voice. I started blushing and getting super embarrassed then all my friends started making me say my signature “I did it!” phrase and recorded it (good thing that one of my friends was talking too much and wrecked the audio file).
Afterwords they all changed their status to something that had to do with a fanclub for me.
“JAYFIISH’S #3421 FAN”
“JOIN THE JAYFIISH FANCLUB”
“I JOINED THE J-FISH CLUB!”
etc etc
I apologize to my boyfriend.
He forgives me.
Now he’s making me feel like shit.
I feel like I can never do anything right.
Obviously there’s something wrong with me that causes me to screw up everything.
Why can’t I ever feel good about myself?
Sometimes I just say I'm going out. Get in my car. Drive to a Starbucks. Go through the drive thru. Buy myself my favorite drink. Park my car in the parking lot. Then I just sit there and cry.
